CHANGE

Ain't it funny how you think you're gonna be okay,
till you remember things ain't never gonna be the same again.
Ain't it crazy how you think you've got your whole life planned,
just to find that it was never ever in your hand.

today was supposed to be a great day, at least a smooth-riding day.
today was a bad day instead.

ARGH i am losing my mind. everything is piling up on me, and it's getting heavier. 10 essays within a month, march common test (which the teacher kindly named it as 'progress check test' to make it sound nicer), maths test, cca stuffs, and so many more other things, not to mention those terrible incorrigible incidents that happen today. i just can't believe how useless i can be, the extent of useless-ness is like incomparable and inmeasurable. only the tough can survive the burden, the weak totally get crushed underneath.
A human body contains good genes, the difference is the percentage. and i believe mine is called zero percent, simple as that.

yes yes an emo post, and i know you had enough of it. you can press that red button on the top right hand corner right now, i wont stop you.
stop saying 'sunthai, can you stop posting emo post' or whatever, this blog belongs to me, and i am not forcing you to read, so if you don't like the content, feel free to go away. if you don't feel like commenting on my tagboard, then don't. nobody forcing you or anything. maybe i should remove my tagboard too so no one will comment anything at all.
you want something that is not emo?

life's fun, life's great, life's everything, and i love my life!(:

there you have it, a sentence that shows no traces of emo, just pure happiness. you want something happy in my blog, then FEED ON THIS.
you and i know that that sentence sounds frinkingly fake if i'm the one saying it. so what's the point of blogging if all i'm posting is unreal stuffs about myself? this is my blog, and i want to express my true feelings through it, and the truth is i am unhappy, so accept it. if you want a lovey, goody, happy, smily blog, you can just exit this blog and go search google. don't bother reading my blog.
just for your reassurance, i'll recover no matter what, the only things that matter is how long i take to recover, and how long before i'm back into this whirlpool once again. i can only say, the frequency of it happening is increasing, rapidly.

i am now in a terrible mood. i feel like going to the beach and scream to the sea, or maybe jump into it. ARGH i am really losing my mind.
and i know that things are just going to get worse from today onwards. if i can't even survive what you call the tip of the iceberg, i might as well be gone.
ARGH i am totolly disgusted, my valentine is screwed up.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PICK YEE!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WYNNE!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SZEYAN!
HAPPY IN-ADVANCED BIRTHDAY RACHELINE!
HAPPY IN-ADVANCED BIRTHDAY JUNJIE!
HAPPY IN-ADVANCED BIRTHDAY GUANJIE!

you disappointed me once again, and i've decided
this is near the end.

please do not leave me alone♥