THE KEY TO MY HEART

i was planning to spend my new year's eve by gaming the midnight away, but after reading pearlyn's blog, i decided to have the last post of twenty-oh-seven, and of course finally post all the photos of the last one month!
i actually wanted to blog last night after the meaningful talk with zhaopei, and yes it was going to be an emo post, but i guess i was too lazy. so i shall blog today instead, and yes to warn you, there will be abit of emo content below, and if you're those kind of people who roll eyes at emo posts and say 'wth, again', then please kindly click on the hot sexy red button on the top right hand corner of your computer screen, the MOST top right hand corner.

ok i know the previous sentence sounds very 'attitude', but what the heck, i really need to do my so-called reflection on new year's eve, so just look at those photos and ignore my post. ( i know i just have a christmas's eve reflection around a week ago, but it doesn't hurt to have more than one reflection per month)

especially when it's night time and it's right after a meaningful 'lock and key' talk with zhaopei.

*look at the time* okay just four more hours to a brand new year!
WOO~ a brand new year, like can you believe it, one year since graduation from secondary school had passed.
so tomorrow when i wake up, it will be twenty-oh-EIGHT, no longer seven! eh okay, i admit i'm slow, that reality is slowly sinking into my head.

a harsh year, but i managed to crawl through. lots and lots of incidents, allowed a better understanding of myself. i'm not a strong person, a strong-willed person, and definitely not a person with strong determination. and i am too tired to change anything. the good new is, i am beginning to see open(kan4 kai1), so yeah, if life sucks, then so be it.
i took the advice that liangyu told me, yeah and try to think on a brighter side, but things didn't really turn out fine eventually, but still i will be okay. although it will take a long time for me to say life's great, i wont say life sucks forever.
i shall not control the flow, i shall go along with the current. i shall live the life that i want and i'm happy with the most. and if in the end everything still become screwed up, then so be it. i can't do anything, since i don't believe i write my own life:X

so for the brand new twenty-oh-eight, it's still the same old wish which still isn't fulfilled, a strong determination, and that my life will become a smoother journey gradually(:

oh well, i think i shall end my emo content here, and yes if u happen to actually read until here, you can throw your hand up and shout ' yes! sunthai has stopped writing about emo stuff, no more emo thingy from here onwards, it's just photos! yes! '
and i'm just going to reply, there will not be anymore emo stuff continuing from this part of the post, but there will be emo posts from today onwards, maybe even more frequent.

yeah went out with mum to takashimaya and plaza singapura to shop with mum, and i am going say it loud, i am not going to shop at takashimaya ever again, it's so... ugh, and so beyond my taste style and most importantly, budget. (and yes xiumin, i saw nathan hartono there i think, oh aren't you jealous! hahas)
i think i'm still more into shopping places like plaza sing and marina sq. i know! i shall be the ambassador of plaza sing and marina sq:D ohmygod aren't they so going to be honoured. not only that i saw szeyan, shiyun and woonhwee at plaza sing, talking about a small world:D it's a long time since i met shiyun and szeyan! and yes shiyun&woonhwee, i am officially the ambassador of IP Zone, since i bought so many of their shirts. *open my closet* okay i think i have quite a significant amount of IP Zone shirts, in fact, too much. i am going to stop buying shirts from IP Zone.
on second thought, i think i should stop buying shirts, i've got too much of them in my closet. (wait a minute, i just bought a shirt a few hours ago! oh man!) maybe i should start clearing up my closet! for the brand new year!

oh and did i mention i'm no longer obsessed with Samuel & Kevin(S&K) shop? since S.H.E is no longer the official ambassador of S&K, i shall also no longer like the shop. like when you walked into the shop, you can't see S.H.E poster on the wall lehh! oh my, what a disappointment! now it became poster of typical caucasian models posing):
anyway i shall stop here/ wishing everyone a..
HAPPY NEW YEAR! smile everyone!

ADELINE&ZHAOPEI BDAE CELEBRTN(:
XINYI'S XMAS/CECILIA'S BDAE PARTY!

please do not leave me alone♥

the season of joy&laughter
a season without YOU

Falling Away - Marion Raven

He comes to me
He comes to me and I'm already gone
He doesn't see
He doesn't see that we're hanging on
Blocking out the pieces of today
Trying to get back to yesterday

We're falling away
And there's nothing left but rain
No there's nothing left here
All I hear is silence as I say
We're falling away

I go to him
I go to him and he's not really there
We can't begin
We can't begin to go anywhere
All is done, there's nothing left to say
Memories of his smile fade to grey

And how can we care
When it is so clear
That we're not ending up where we're supposed to be
Let's just forget now
Let's forget somehow
Let's not regret all the things that we used to be

My eyes still blur
My eyes still blur from refusing to see
I'm just not sure
I'm just not sure that we're meant to be

Untouched - The Veronicas

I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah
lalalalalalalala
I can lalalalalala
I wanna wanna wanna get get get what I want
Don't stop
Give me give me give me what you got got
Cause I can't wait wait wait any more more more more
Don't even talk about the consequence
Cause right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say, what they think think
Cause you're the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time for ever, never wanna hear you say goodbye (bye bye bye)

I feel so untouched
And I want you so much
That I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
I've gone crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
And I need you so much

See you, breathe you, I want to be you
Alalalala alalalala
You can take take take take take time time
To live live the way you gotta gotta live your life
Give me give me give me all of you you
Don't be scared
I'll see you through the loneliness of one more more more
Don't even think about what's right or wrong, wrong or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me and no one else is gonna be around
To answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be so even if the world falls down today
You've still got me to hold you up up
And I will never let you down (down)


introducing to you all two great songs(:
reflection, the christmas eve.

rough year, but i survived, and that's the good new!
this year, the beginning of the exception years.
everything is going down, down and further down. down as in you know, negatively bad. i can't think so anything that's going up, except for my weight, which i'm trying my best to at least maintain it. ARGH
self-esteem, relationships, academics and many more things.


DOWN, NEGATIVELY DOWN.

what am i as compared to others, nothing.
i'm having difficulty to find something about myself that i can say i'm proud of.
boy1 was happy as he just recieved a wooden toy train from his parents, before he knew it, boy2 took out a toy train, a remote-control metallic toy train from Toy 'R' Us.
am i aiming for too high, or am i unable to reach that height?
eh, life is an irony bahh;

have fun studying with eunice, chunkiat pearlyn and adeline today, then hanging out with the latter three at tampines mall. dear chunkiat, please do not forget the lesson on christmas spirit, it's all about giving(: i'm waiting!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
STAY HAPPY(:

it doesn't matter who you like, you may like someone else.
i like you for who you are,
not who you like.

but if you've forgotten me, i've nothing to say.

please do not leave me alone♥

my christmas wishes.YOU

these two days been pretty good(:
tiring but pleasing, aching but rewarding.

yesterday was smooth-going for my job, which was particularly good since monday was like depressing for me. but i know that with hard work, a strong belief and a habit of actually talking to myself and telling myself ' go sunthai, you can do this, you are the man. Don't give up! ', it will eventually paid off. at least i hope so.
but i was so engrossed in my work that when i went to a gift shop to buy something, i actually almost walked off without paying. like when the sale person passed me the carefully wrapped gift, i actually walked off immediately. maybe i was in my mp3 music world or i was thinking something else, but i was like so damn paiseh when the person tapped me. she actually called me, but i didn't hear clearly, so she had to tap me and say ' eh, sorry sir, the money... ', oh my god, i didn't even know where to hide my face. ARGH i was like so damn damn paiseh that i kept apologising to her. i can't believe i actually did this kind of thing, first time in my whole time!

ARGH now when i think about it, i will still be like shocked at my action. talking about paiseh-ness:X

today was fun working with eunice kuah, at least it was not that lonesome when i worked alone): anyway eunice kuah kheng kheng should be so happy over the moon to know i had fun working with her, and the conversation on the bus trip was a burden off my shoulder. i told you eunice, the last sentence on the birthday card which i gave you was true, and i believe it will sustain for a long time(: but she had to quit the job today and leave me alone because she had obtained the amount of money that she wanted( which is ALOT ), and also she wants to study for the rest of the last week. oh well, she's still as hardworking as ever.

went to yinghui's house at the evening for gathering. miss my drama people so much, they are still so crazy as ever, maybe even crazier than before.
something just never change, but i'm glad my drama people are still funky, crappy and fun-loving. i just hope the tamadecute duo don't see this, if not they will go around saying they are great, kind and everything nice-.-
and i was talking to tony on the phone in the lift and i actually walked out of the lift at the wrong storey. i stepped out of the lift at the 12th storey when i lived at the 15th storey.

man, just how blur can i get-.-
never mind, walking out of the lift at the wrong storey happens quite occasionally.

oh and i'm excited about both christmas/new year's party, just hope it will be carried out smoothly(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGHUI!
HAPPY IN-ADVANCED BIRTHDAY CECILIA!

okay, photos and everything else about recent events will be uploaded maybe in the next post.
better go and do homeworks and script writing.
ARGH totally spoiled the mood. especially the latter, what the !@#$%^&*(

so much for forgetting about you.
my christmas wishes.
at least you're having a great life.
hope you will have a great christmas,
without me...

please do not leave me alone♥

to forget you;

No good to have lots of beautiful things.
because i'm scared to lost them.
But... i want you, i want you, i want you,
even if you love someone else.
i don't care if you don't know why the clear sky is blue,
but i want you to know why my cheeks are pink.

i believe those were in the pasts. forgetting you may be the best way to heal.
okay i need to buck up! holiday homeworks, here i come!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Jane!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Kang Rong!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Eunice!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Jenna!
HAPPY IN-ADVANCED BIRTHDAY Adeline!

those memories with you,
those great yet comforting memories, thank you(:
i miss you

please do not leave me alone♥