metamorphosis

maybe what liangyu was saying is correct.
maybe what all of you had said is true.
maybe it's time for a change.

easier said to be done. oh well i will try.

POST EXAMINATION MIND CAFETJC STAR SEARCH'07
CLIQUE STEAMBOAT AT ZHENGYU'S HOUSE

my wish came true, even though it's for a short while.
that feeling is gradually dying, and i know it's for the best/ bahh

please do not leave me alone♥

will you continue with me?

eh, life is an irony bahh.

you know, life isn't like those childhood days, secondary school times, where you can laugh like there's no tomorrow, play like you don't care, and just enjoy the best company that your friends can bring.
nowadays, it's hard to smile, like you know, really smile due to pure happiness. when you're young and small, there's only one reason to smile, because you're happy. as time goes by, to smile is no longer to smile purely, it takes more than one reason to smile. and even so, in that smile, what you can see is not entirely happiness, but also traces of tired-ness and stress-ness. i miss those days, to smile with you all around, and just enjoy the company.


i'm doing whatever i can to get back, but sometimes it takes two hands to clap.
do you know how it feels, when you throw a ball to a person, and yet the person refuses to catch it?
do you know how it feels, when you smile at a person, and yet the person just turns away?
do you know how it feels, when you want the person to know something, and yet the person just don't get it?
i'm experiencing that kind of feeling right now. and i just hope someday, you will understand.
the feeling of holding on to the memories of others, and yet being forgotten by else.

in a lifetime, cold-hearted separations are bound to happen.
but the heart-warming reunion may not always occur.

this few day isn't very, well you know, pleasing for some reasons. something is not right, and yes i can sense it.
those moments, and the future moments i'm going to cherish it no matter what. someone once said that sentence before, and yes i'm still going to say it's inevitable. but still, even if it's going to end, i will make sure i am not the cause of it.
i cherish it more than anything in this world.
believe me. it takes two hands to clap, so i need you to believe and trust me. right now, all i can do put my faith in you all.
just don't give up on me and abandon me. i am trying my best here/

you know, once in a while, look into the dark night sky, and just think about nothing. for some reasons, you will feel calmer and peaceful-er. for me, i usually end with a prayer, and pray that everything will go well, somehow~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZHAOPEI!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HUI YIN!

maybe i should just give up, since you're not getting the hint.
can't you just listen to me for once and accompany me?

please do not leave me alone♥

question the existence

time flies, and slows down at the same time.
in a blink, almost one year is gone.


i'm quite amazed that i'm still surviving. it's practically a miracle. it's like somehow, i managed to stumbled my way through, even though i don't know how i did it at all. and my speculation for the future, i'm going to continue to stumble, trip, fall all the way till don't know when. my aims, my goals, my destination, all gone. i will just go where the path leads me. i don't create the path, i don't decide the path, the path makes me, and my life.

june common tests, promo examinations, open house, relationship, love.
so many things, i don't know what to be feeling. should i be happy, or should i be sad?
i can't say i did not try my best, but i dare not say i tried my best. the problem is, i don't know where the problem lies, and let's not talk about the solution. i will just drift, where the current carries me.

ok fine you must be rolling eyes now, yes life isn't that bad, though i can't say 'life's great'. let's just say life's full of ups and downs, and my roller-coaster is going down and up and down and up and down and down and down, down, down and hardly up. i will cherish the ups, but the downs hit hard (ok i just realised the previous sentence the 'ups' and 'hard' rhymes.)

eh, life is an irony bahh.
you know, it's just like you can only pray that everything will be smooth, at least bearable, please.
yesyes i will update soon with lots of photos.

how it feels to fall in love?
i'm missing you,
and i really want to see you..

please do not leave me alone♥