jealousy

counting down to our last day, jealousy flooding my mind. when can i learn to be contented with my life, or should i ask, why are you so perfect?

on second thought, imperfectionist beyond hope or just imagination running wild? jealousy or admiration? hoping for or hopeless dreams? gosh, am i being too negative, or am i just afraid to face the truth?

this is one of the days where i start to think... seriously.
photos of past events coming up soon.

the difference between perfect and imperfect
is that one's positive, the other's negative.

please do not leave me alone♥

the familiar stranger;

today is the celebration of adeline/eunice perfect birthday bash!!! ( and ck, we're will not be bashing them up...) and i was the organiser of the birthday bash. due to my excellent organisation skills, the birthday bash was a success(: and we even surprised adeline( at least i think so). movie was next and we watched "Charlotte's Web". it's nice and funny, and i am not the rat ok!!! argh third movies in this month, i'm seriously broke... some of the crazy things we did outside the cinema, and i shall call this "Eunderella (with adeline)" adapted from "Cinderella" the korean movie(: and i am as adorable as happy feet!!! :D and my next production since "LCK must die", i present *drums roll*... "Death Note: The Last Name (modesty style) ". i know the pose, resolution, whatever wasn't that perfect as last time, but there was like millions of people staring at us, thinking that we were some crazy kids. we were like "faster take the picture!! alot of people looking at us lehh! faster!!"... lol, so paiseh lahh.

anyway the major event of the day, was the weaving of love web for a specific couple. LOL it was so funny, watching the couple chasing/looking for us. don't blame us, we'll just helping to create a chance for both of them. i won't mention the names, in case i get slapped by someone. pearlyn is in grave danger, for somebody is fainting to slap her... i want to thank everyone for coming today(: xiumin didn't join the movie as she don't have enough money, apparently she used $5 for a donation. wow that's like alot. anyway mr leong is leaving tomorrow to thailand, safe trip and don't forget my christmas present, and this time i don't want soil, air or water from thailand, thanks...

2 more weeks and 2006 will be over.
My Christmas wishes: a new sling bag( get it, shawn?) , Wind Fantasy 5 game, Final Fantasy X(shawn again~) and The Veronicas debut album( angeline~). take note of these everyone(:

oh and thanks to those who comforted me about the JAE results. i guess i wasn't prepared to enter mjc. it's not because the school is not good or whatever, even though alot of people says so, which demoralised me indirectly, but i wasn't mentally prepared as mjc isn't top on the 'jc that i want to enter' list. accessibility is another problem. imagine waking up 4-5am every morning, argh this is going to be a tough six weeks for me):

and the mjc orientation falls on the same day as the children camp. pissed off~
till then takecare everyone...

tagg replies;
tony; well i didn't really got into a jc that i want, but never mind le lahh. no choice, but at least got into same jc as you. thanks still
jialing; yepp will cheer up(: and i will survive the first 6 weeks, no matter how torturing it is. thanks and good luck to you!!
xinyi; thanks. i hope i can enter vjc and meet you:)
cecilia; hahas you sleeptalk? hope that the first 6 weeks will be gone in a flash!
yinghui; thank you! and try your best to learn cycling! we shall go cycling next time again!!
aaron; thanks, i will not be sad anymore(:
pearlyn; yoy same school mate, yepp i won't be upset anymore, because you can accompany me(: hope that we can get into same class!! *prays* and today was fun!!
cyan; smile too(:

what was meant to be, was never to be
what used to be familiar, is now drifting away.
someday, it may just all fall apart

10 years down the road, where will you be?
all i know, is that you'll be in my heart, somewhere...

please do not leave me alone♥

distraught

i've got nothing to say.
cause the god didn't answer my prayers.
instead, god makes me realize how stupid i am.
memories of prelim came rushing back.
and i know that it's useless for me.

i guess alot of you are jumping in joy now,
well as usual i am not one of them.

i don't know why,
but i am not happy at all):

my confidence has almost depleted.
i wonder how sucky my o's will be...

please do not leave me alone♥

let fate decide,
where i'll stand...

as promised, i posted these photos in my blog.
a crazy day in east coast park with tony, xinyi, cecilia, aaron, qianni, yinghui and shannon. we rode the bike for around one hour, which is very tiring, and my butt became numb. then lunch at pastamania at parkway.
ohyes i HATE cycling uphill, it consumed alot of energy(:

i guess everyone is feeling nervous, except for those who are brimming with confidence.
well i am obviously not one of them.
this is so nerve breaking, since my future may depend in this. but still, i am not holding high hopes, i just want someone to accompany me, so that i will not be spending my time in solitude with no one to talk to...
and in case you don't know what i am talking about, let me give you one hint: the results of the Provisional Pre-U admission will come out tomorrow.

i am not happy now. i am nervous):

tagg replies
jialing_ congrats you are one step closer to know more about 'the life of sunthai'!! lol anyway i am not the only who uses the earthquake threats, there are alot people out there who use that too. and totally agree that ck can be irritating. oops.
chunkiat_ tagging or spamming, you still owe me an earthquake, since i didnt breath out the taboo word on tuesday. you should thank me alot. anyway cheer up. you confirm can one, trust me. i got confidence in you(:
yinghui_ hellos. today is fun. hope you will eventually learn to cycle. you are getting it liao!!
pearlyn_ hey i didnt cheat!! this is called smartness. anyway you also cheated by deleting your blog!!(: protest- we want pearlyn's blog back! we want it back fast~~ LOL
cecilia_ oh it was tony? well i am pretty sure you did snore too. or was you dream talking? anyway you were doing something, but i forgot what it is, mrs pig~ ;)

one problem after another.
answer my prayer, god.
and let my simple wish come true, please.

please do not leave me alone♥

true friends, finally(:

Keep Holding On-Avril Lavigne
You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

[Chorus]
Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

[Chorus]

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

[Chorus]

Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hanging On-Cheyenne Kimball
I've had a bad day
And nothing ever seems to go my way
I've got a heartache
Don't wanna think about it

And everytime I try to smile, I cry,
So I'll just hide my face
Get out of my way
Don't wanna talk about it

And I'll be fine
I just need some time

[Chorus]
I'm hanging on today
And nothing's gonna stop me, anyway
I'm holding on, I'm strong
I'm the only one who can make it change
I don't wanna fight
I've gotta live my life
I'm gonna make it right
I'm hanging on
And nothing's gonna stop me, anyway

I went the wrong way
But I'm not lost, it's a good mistake
I saw the day break
I'm gonna shout about it

Oh, and everytime I turn around
I find that, I'm alone again
I've had a bad day
I'm gonna laugh about it

And I'll be fine
I'm gonna be all right

[Chorus]

When I feel lonely
I feel like I'm floating
Nothing is real
I'm above it all
I'm above it
I'm above it all

[Chorus]

I've had a bad day

tadah~ two great song recommendations from me(:
i strongly recommend the first song by Avril Lavigne. Finally after a long wait, Avril is coming up with a single( at least i think so ). This song will also be featured in the ERAGON movie and soundtrack. And i've got the song already, yeah so if you want it you can ask from me kindly.
second song is cool, simple yet meaningful lyrics. and if you're thinking how the name of the singer is pronounced, don't worry about it, i also don't know the pronunciation(:

anyway had been rotting at home ever since coming back from chalet. BUT i've been also trying my utmost best to find a temporary job, which proved to be almost dificult. My money supply has depleted, hence if i don't find a job to earn some extra cash, i will not be able to go out. even if i go out, while you all are watching movie, i'll be outside the cinema, watching real-life movie.
while you all are eating, i'll be looking at you all eat( wait a minute, i always do that ). while you all are k-boxing, i will be outside singing to myself. anyway you get the idea, don't you.

so if anyone of you out there has a job suitable for me, please get in contact with me. unfortunately i can only work for 2 weeks at most as i've got the first three month JC admission. and to all my friends, if any of your relatives are looking for people, be sure to inform me!!!

ok i sound really desperate. LOL
till then takecare everyone(:

tagg replies-
cecilia. yesyes i am wide awake now. couldn't get to sleep that night because someone( you ) was snoring like a pig. wait, you are a pig in the first place. ;D
tony. yeap the chalet was really fun. let's do it again, but wait until i got enough money. afterall we spent ALOT money on the BBQ, for some strange reason...
cyan. me and ck go film a television series, LOL i don't mind, since i will be the lead actor. anyway it's 'comical', not 'comic', tsktsktsk such bad english. and what's replies? i thought i already recommend lemonade juices to you LOL:)

i don't understand why is it in the past,
all i can see is your good qualities.
but not anymore,
i've began to see the darker side of yours.
i've began to change my view on you.
you got your life, i've my life,
so no more dwelling on you.
you split personality-er...

please do not leave me alone♥

counting down
to our last day...

yeah finally i'm back from my one night chalet from sentosa!! ok 'chalet' is not really the right word, 'hut' will be more correct, as we really stayed in a kampong hut literally. the hut was like freakingly small, with only about 2.0 m length and 2.0 breadth too, yes you can go measure that and realised that it will be even smaller than your luxurious bedroom. there's no television, toilet or refrigerator, the only things you could see were beds and a dying air-con( plus walls, ceilings blah blah). oh yes let's not forget that the huts were in a middle of a so called 'forest', hence we were attacked by mosquitoes, spiders, lizards, you can named any insects you want. considering it's only $40 per night, you will be getting this kind of 1 star room. (: that's tony and aaron at the back, and cecilia and xinyi( aka the tamade cute gals ) in the front. and the big fire you see in the middle of the photo, it's caused by dripping margarine into the flame. hence what we got in the end were satays, with the satay stick burnt away( aka the stickless satays ). barbecuing was great, with the food we put so much effort into cooking, and the alcohol-mixed drinks done by xinyi( it was very nice!!). and as usual we left alot of food uneaten. haix such a waste of food):

and today when we checked out, guess what we saw??a peacock!! this stupid peacock just can't stand still and keep changing its pose, waiting for us to capture the different angle of its pretty body, well they don't say "as proud as a peacock" for nothing. not only that, we saw at the carpark, a sign saying this,"beware of peacock pecking your cars". LOL like why should they go peck the cars, unless they want to make their beaks crooked? or maybe they aren't in the right state of mind? this is so funny LOL...

people going overseas, people working, seriously at this rate we are never going to meet each other anymore. i'm not saying that we all should not go overseas or go to work, BUT... fine i kind of miss everyone, having fun together. ( those reading this now must be going awwww~~~ so sweet ). anyway who knows when we will meet again, but till then, take utmost care(:

tagg replies
chunkiat are you sure you contributed during chalet? and who says i can't suan you on my blog. hello you suan me like don't know how many times in your blog!! LOL this is called revenge is sweet(:
cyan yepp you told me umpteen times that i'm nice!! and i just realised that lemonade is the nicest juice of all!! LOL anyway thanks for comforting me, i will not think too much;D
Qiani you miss the last episode of CHARMED?!?! that's so unforgivable. go check the youtube and see if there's the last episode? you must watch it no matter what!!
ly hey thanks alot. actually not hot lahh, i just anyhow dancing, just swaying with the music. there were other people hotter than me(:
wyn thanks for the praise! the skeleton shirt better look nice on me, i spent like don't knwo how much on it ok LOL ;)

please do not leave me alone♥