the end?

ok fine, so prom night was exceptionally fun, mainly due to the dancefloor. dancefloor was great, and it doesn't matter if you don't know how to dance, you can just sway to the music. it felt really nice. to be able to dance on a dancefloor, that's one wish fulfilled for me, ok i'm kind of happy. here are some of the pictures we took yesternight... fine so maybe yesternight i was really high at the dancefloor. but after the end of prom night, my body was officially lethargic and energy-less. but i was still happy as surprisingly, it only took less than 10 minutes to reach my home, and it only cost $6.45, LOL which is like really cheap, since i was thinking the cost will be like $10+++

i was thinking practically the whole night...when will we have the chance again to dance together at a dancefloor, when will we have the chance again to have fun and play together? on the taxi, i just realize that this may be the last time we see each other. there will not be anymore major events that will bring the majority of the class together and have fun( unless someone is kind enough to organise ). in some ways, prom night had brought us closer together, as we would be shopping, choosing prom clothes, hanging out together. think about it, will we have the chance to do this again? maybe and maybe not.

two years in 4 modesty has just passed. in this class, i had gone through happiness, and disappointment. for the first time in my whole life, i realised the importance, and the fragile-ness, of friendship. maybe it's because of this, i cherish 4 modesty alot. i still remember two years ago, i was telling adeline, that all good things come to an end. but today, i still can't accept that. graduation day didn't marked the end, but prom night probably marked the end of everything. just when we got back together, we may have to separate again.

to everyone in 4 modesty, and i really mean every single one of you in 4 modesty, thanks alot for being part of my life. i will miss every single one of you, and will never ever forget 3/4 modesty. takecare everyone, i'm sure someday we will see each other again. if we see each other on the streets, don't forget to say "hello!!". gosh i am feeling so sad and down now~~

the end or the beginning,
either way it sounds horrible to me.
this is not a happy ending to me,
as i still have something left undone.
will we see each other again?

please do not leave me alone♥

it's over

sometimes you wonder, why do you care so much about others. sometimes you wonder, if it's worth caring so much for others. you care so much about others' feeling, sometimes you just lose yourself. you ask yourself the true meaning of life, if you live for yourself, or for the sake of others, but sometimes you can't find the answer at all. you wish that you could be independent and not be influenced by people, but it is just impossible. the problems of relationship can be devastating. you wish the best for others, you do everything you can to maintain the relationship, but does your partners do the same? do your partners feel the same way as you do? you tried to find out the answer, but was left hanging on a thread. you know it hurts, but still you cherish the relationship, hence you decide to bear the pain, and live with it. even if your partners doesn't appreciate it. sometimes you wonder, if it's your imagination, but you will never know the truth, as you can never know what the others' really feel. sometimes you wonder, if it's your fault, or your partners' fault?
you want to forget about it, but it's hard.

ok random thoughts. went out to buy prom clothes today again. seriously my enthusiasm with prom night is rapidly slipping down, considering the fact that buying prom clothes is so tiring and troublesome. you need to know if it's suitable, how it looks on you, how people think of it... so many factors affecting your choices. ohya did i mention i have a sudden craze for brown and striped recently, i'm totally in love with dark brown and milky white striped!!!! LOL. anyway, it's not as if i am snatching the prom king title, unlike someone ( you know who i'm talking about, i'm not mentioning the name ;D ) who is aiming the prom king title. LOL. truthfully, if he was to be nominated as the prom king, i will definitely vote for him, since there will be an earthquake for me if i vote. ( oops did i reveal too much information ) gosh, i'm so going to be beaten up/ slapped/ punched by somebody.

some things are better left forgotten;
but some things can't be forgotten;
even if you want to...

please do not leave me alone♥

forever charmed;

okayy, this is getting teary. considering the fact that i just finish watching 'CHARMED season 8' final season, final episode. yes yes i know people have been saying CHARMED has been getting worse with every season, with shawn saying,' they now focused more on sex appeal ', and with chunkiat saying,' it is idiotic', but no matter what happens, there will be a loyal CHARMED fan living in singapore at chinatown.

the season finale of the final episode was like really touching, i could feel the tears rolling in my eyes literally. gosh, i will really miss CHARMED a whole lot. maybe i should watch the whole eight seasons again? darn it, i just can't accept the fact that CHARMED is gone, over, no more. let's just hope they will produce another exciting series like CHARMED, and by that i do not mean prisonbreak, smallville. ghost whisperer could be my next addiction, but there's only Jennifer Love Hewitt, unlike CHARMED which have Alyssa Milano, Rose Mcgowan and Holly Marie Combs. okayy i just want to say, i will miss CHARMED~

taggs replies;
[edna] don't be idiotic edna. try doing something more conducive like reading my post twice instead of 'hello,byebye' in the tagboard. ;X
[pearlyn] LOL ever since you mixed too much with adeline & chunkiat, you've joined the 'i'll be in every photo' gang. hahas . T.S.K.T.S.K ;D
[jialing] i'm glad you realised how unglam you've looked inside. LOL no lahh, i can see that someone is more unglam-er than you ;)
[cyan] on 2nd thoughts, email is also kind of troublesome. LOL, & you want what juices? apple, orange or grape? i think honeydew juice is very nice :D

please do not leave me alone♥

'restart' button
firstly, we got a group of people whose eyes will be stuck on the television watching the popular korean drama series "Goong", while their mouths munched on potato chips and bbq food. and for some reasons, i became "Shin Jun" and " Lu Jun", while mrs eunice became "Cai Jing". LOL
secondly, there will be a group of people trying their utmost best to cook the raw food in the dim light. but luckily the light provided by the 'symbol of friendship' shone through the darkness and gave them the strength to continue cooking.
note: not all people in the photo were helping to cook. some greedy people( namely chunkiat and adeline ) were just hovering around the pit, waiting for the cooked to land on their plates :D
thirdly, there will be a group of people trying their utmost best too, to squeeze into every photos so as to be in the spotlight. what they did not realise is, the spotlight will always be on me x) LOL. and that summarize what happened on the first chalet night. pearlyn :DLim Sun Thai ( me ) ;)Adeline :PYellow ribbon project benedict :X LOL
and this concluded the end of the chalet...

whirlpool, confusion, suffocation, mindblock, silent...
let's call these the after effects of prelim and o level examinations.
or you may call these retributions.
so much rushing through my mind.
a pulled rubber band that is about to snap.
you told me to forget about it and let it go,
but it still lingers in my mind.
i just feel so guilty,
i did not really mean anything.
sorry.

tagg replies[ as requested ]
qianni- thanks for the good luck. and yu must jiayou for everything you do. for now let's work ard for syf!!
yinghui- hey you must be happy too, don't only comfort me, you must also be strong too ;D
pearlyn- hello miss 1st post olevel tagger PLUS supporter of univarsesunlets.broglet.com. tsktsktsk, that will be 100 earthquake from you for being the supporter. hahas takecare too;D
chunkiat- yesyes you can express anything you want on your blog. or should i say on univaresunlets brog?? one day i will have my revenge.
ksy- i said to meet at harbourfront mrt at 1 am, not 2 am. you're late. we already went for movie at that time. dangs
jialing- erm yesyes i will be so happy if you all could remove the 'laminated chicken' from your mind. since i'm so nice to paste your photo there. and i know i am the king of the world. MUHAHAS
cyan- lol thanks a million for those 'love' letters. i will cherish them a whole lots. and about your 'love' letters, why don't i send you through email? it's faster. LOL
heke- you must also keep blogging, don't let your blog be stagnant for too long!! and have fun during the holidays too!! takecare ;D

when can i walk out of this black tunnel?
when can i find my happiness?
or will i?

please do not leave me alone♥

bleak future;

i know o level is over. i know we should be celebrating our escape from studying, and have lots and lots of fun. but for me, after all those fun and excitement, it still boil down to one question.
where will i be for my first three months?

i am freakingly down now. my mind is whirling about where i am going to be in february next year. i just wish it will turn out the way i want, but still my heart is broken too many times for me to hold any hopes.

my prayer,
let me have all the fun in the world,
then let my life ends...

please do not leave me alone♥

wishing for the impossible.

unbelievable but true. after around one month of mugging and isolating myself from the computer, i am back. gosh i can't describe how much i miss my computer. (hug my computer). this whole month has been a crazy one. with lots and lots of revision. for once, i actually feel that i am a hardworking boy.

mugging is boring. everyone knows that. but now it's all over. o level is over, i repeat, O LEVEL IS OVER. can you believe it? i still remember 16 days ago, in front of a calender...
"oh my god!! 16days to go!!" *frowns*
"but after that it's all over!!" *grins*
"but 16 days of mugging~" *roll eyes*
and with that, i dragged myself into my room and forced myself to study. let's not forget another person who managed to get me studying. yes i am talking about my mother.
please, she is asking me to get at least 9A1, which is practically impossible. don't tell me "nothing is impossible", since i only have 8 subjects(excluding chinese). seriously she should open her eyes wide and see that her son isn't that genius but more in the 'stupid' zone.

but still now that it's all over, i kind of miss it. considering the fact that i get to take 12 to school because of o level. 12 is nice, & it's even nicer to take 12 in the early morning, as there will be no one on the bus(excluding the bus driver). not only that, you can own the second deck of the bus all to yourself!! i just love empty bus with only me on board. even though it seems a bit freaking in the early morning, for i will be thinking that the bus driver is trying to kidnap me. LOL ok i know this is idiotic.

ok let's not talk about o level anymore, since i got the feeling i screwed up as usual. let's talk about something else. what about graduation? i know it's like one month ago, but hey i still have some photos to post and words to say. firstly i want to say a big "thank you" to my BN-MD friends. they have accompany me all these four years and i appreciate it very much. ( yes yes since jialing wasn't there when we took this photo, i cut and paste her face there. jialing should be so grateful to me LOL ;D ) let's not forget my ex-bn friends!! sheery kenneth chunpoh & szeyan!! i still remember the times i bullyed kenneth and chunpoh, szeyan being the mother(that was so chlidish), and crapping loads with sheery. especially to szeyan for writing 'love' letters to me. and sorry to sheery for not lenting her the stefanie sun cd :Pof course let's not forget my best english drama pals, tony and wyntrice. we had so so much fun time together during drama session. now that drama is over, i will miss it, and those fun times we had together. nevertheless we can always go visit out nice juniors and support them for their syf!! yeah~~~
lastly, i want to thank everyone in four modesty who have brighten up my day. thanks to all of you. i really will miss 4 modesty. good luck to you all and smiles always ;D

oh yes before anything else, let me show you all something amazing.two years ago ( three modesty )now ( four modesty )
two years ago, i stepped into 3modesty feeling nervous. but you all make me a part of the family. i made new friends, gained new experience because of you all.
you all made the innocent young kind sunthai grow up into the mature but still innocent kind and young at heart sunthai. thanks. ( actually the main motive of this paragraph is to praise myself ;D)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE ZHAOPEI!! she should be so happy that i actually spent time buying her a present and writing a letter to her. and i bet she is so glad with the present i gave her. LOL

ok let's move on to the next topic.
our next topic is... yes, mr leongchunkiat's dedication to me in the blog.
about those mistakes, yes i admit i was the one who made those pronunciation mistake. AND because if these few pronunciation mistakes, people around me like ck and adeline have been paying close attention to whatever i said, trying their utmost best to spot any mistakes. AND they are so generous enough to actually make a univarsunlet.brogspot for me. not only that, this act of "vote for univarsunlet.brogspot" has gain the supports of people (pearlyn, zhaopei and counting).
this is definitely not a good news to me, since i am the poor innocent victim in this incident. however, there's one thing i must make clear to everyone. ck's dedication to me made me sound like everything that come out of my mouth has error on it, which is so not true. what i am trying to say is that, sometimes when you get so engrossed in conversation, you tend to just blurt out some words without processing it through your brain to check the pronunciation. AND when i says "blurt out", i mean it's something i can't control. yes yes the conclusion is, it is a reflex action. hence you can't blame me for making those mistakes, it was just due to some carelessness and some lack of control due to high emotion.
come on everyone knows that my pronunciation isn't THAT bad, afterall i've brushed up my pronunciation skills during english drama session. when i am serious and composed, my pronunciation skills can be as great as the news broadcaster in BBC or CNA. MUHAHAS.
so is everyone clear about this incident? i hope everyone will pity this poor victim here who is being targeted by so many devils, instead of joining them in the making of "univarsunlet.brogspot". thanks

now that o level is over, i've so much things to do. i am so looking forward to tomorrow. and saturday too. even though ck pearlyn disagree on k box. *sobs* never mind i shall be nice and complement them. ( that will be one more neoprint from pearlyn and one more earthquake from ck ). chalet is next week and prom night is on 29. gosh so many things to do, so little time. for now, let's just wait for tomorrow to come, for i will be spending quality time with rikku ;D

to guanjie, thanks for the graduation presents.
to szeyan, thanks for those encouragment/love letters.
to adeline, thanks for calling me every now and then to ask me questions, it sort of help me to learn something new. continue calling me ok, so we can just crap ;D (don't forget my high school musical)
to ksy, do not forget to meet us at habourfront mrt at 1am tomorrow. LOL
to zhaopei,ck,pearlyn,woonhwee, i am not sure if this is a 10000words post ( i don't think so ). but i am really tired now, so i'm just to lazy to count. you can go count it yourself. LOL
to fourmodesty, thankyou/

where am i, in your perfect life?
do you even realise that i'm alive?
will you miss me, like i miss you?
who am i, really to you?

get real, sunthai. and stop wasting your time, wishing for the impossible.

please do not leave me alone♥